Being in charge

Mila, Ruz, and I are hanging out right now here in Kuya's waiting for 7pm to arrive. For a long time, we haven't been complete for a gimmick and I'm glad that changes today. Tere, Alvin, Butch, Ace, Acie, Ivy, Miss G, Karla, Sonj, and Lloydie are all coming here in the city. We're having dinner at Tony's di Napoli in the Upper West Side. It'll be loads of fun I'm sure, kahit na I don't feel very well. My lymph nodes (under my left jaw and I found a new one directly under my chin) are swollen. I have swollen gums too, but just in one area in between two tooth. 

I didn't like work today. Sometimes, it doesn't pay to love what you do and be great at it. I.e, I've been feeding this one resident, O.P., because I love her to death and she's been really sick. I feel for her because she's super sweet, giving hugs a million times a shift. For the nearly 3 months I've been working on tenth floor, I've never seen a relative visit her, and its saddening because she's so dear. Her family doesn't bring any clothes, so she wears socks and clothing from deceased residents. She's legally blind and she wanders around the unit aimlessly. One time, she got caught fiddling around another resident's balloons and was trying to get it. The other resident hysterically freaked out. I thought the whole thing was hilarious!

Back to the story, I've been feeding O.P. because she's had a rapid decline and been continuously refusing to eat. Today, another resident's been persistently coughing and her aide thought it best to leave her in her own room for lunch, as not to possibly contaminate the other diners. So guess who feeds her too? Me, the nice unit nurse.

And then this really cool aide who changes colostomy bags for me just stopped doing so. Buuuut she's been doing it for the real charge nurse on the unit (I'm covering for the charge nurse while she's on leave). I.do.not.get.it. I'm very certain she has nothing against me. Positive. I can only assume one reason: That it's ok if she doesn't help me with it, kasi I'm easygoing naman to work with.

Moral of the story: Be firm and stop being so nice when you're in charge.

I have a headache.