It's Monday, 2pm. On this glorious day, the brilliant sky is filled with banks of motionless white clouds, fleecy as fleece, but so obedient and lazy they havent any need for a shepherd or a fence. January in New York is a peerless month, with long days of glittering snow and strong winds unfolding. This is the season when even the most foolish couples will stop to appreciate all that is set out vefore them, the creamy blossoms of snow-filled tree branches , the heavenly swarms of doves findin a place of warmth, hovering over white lawns it can seem as though the hand of all that's divine has leaned down to construct a perfect white wonderlanf, white upon white, perfection upon perfection.
Ultimately, the wonderful scenery within my vision is an enigma to my horrible present life. ust this January 13th marked my year of living miserably here in US.
I heard somewhere that when you write in a diary you should pretend that you're writing a letter to a really good friend, someone you trust completely, and you know will never laugh at you. So that's what I'm telling myself, because to tell the truth I feel kind of silly writing about my life in this dorky little book. And it's funny because I've actually made use of diares for several years now, and suddenly it hits me-like hey, I'm 21! According to some people this should be one of the most memorable eras of my whole life. Well, I'm not too sure I even want to remember everything about being 21, but on the other hand, i still have a little optimism that things will look up somehow, and it might actually be worth to track how the rest of 2005 year goes. Especially considering last night could have been the most horrible day of my life.
Monday, January 17, 2005
Sunday, January 16, 2005
A Bad Start
Weight:
118lbs
Why is it so freakin hard to lose weight? And i am only aiming for losing 10lbs - I'd be the merriest slim girl in the world if i lose so. I hate my fats[baby fats, hopefully], I hate my horrible judy-ann face, i hate my brother's obese evil girlfriend.
Food Consumed Today:
Chinese Chicken Salad
Rosemary Chicken Foccacia
Szechuan Slaw
555 Spanish Sardines
1 cup rice
Zone Chocolate Mint Protein Bar
Dylan's Chocolate Duds, Choco Covered Peanuts, Peanut Brittle
Work Hours:
12-510pm
Lesson Learned:
It is proven that stress appetites me, thus - willpower must be stregthened durings stressful days.
Tidbits:
Caught Lil and Jay in YM today.
Chittychat with my beloved.
Bought a:
Candy Pink Burberry Hairband - $50
Shiseido Eyeliner - $16
Ralph Lauren Earrings and B&W Pearl/Onyx Necklace
Dylan's White Long Sleeve Vday Tee
It's 12:17am and Ma's still not here. Hmm...
I SWEAR from this day on that i will not buy candy at Dylan's anymore! UGH! Working right next to candyland is such temptation! AND.. I really will start going to the gym regularly - 3x/week MINIMUM!
118lbs
Why is it so freakin hard to lose weight? And i am only aiming for losing 10lbs - I'd be the merriest slim girl in the world if i lose so. I hate my fats[baby fats, hopefully], I hate my horrible judy-ann face, i hate my brother's obese evil girlfriend.
Food Consumed Today:
Chinese Chicken Salad
Rosemary Chicken Foccacia
Szechuan Slaw
555 Spanish Sardines
1 cup rice
Zone Chocolate Mint Protein Bar
Dylan's Chocolate Duds, Choco Covered Peanuts, Peanut Brittle
Work Hours:
12-510pm
Lesson Learned:
It is proven that stress appetites me, thus - willpower must be stregthened durings stressful days.
Tidbits:
Caught Lil and Jay in YM today.
Chittychat with my beloved.
Bought a:
Candy Pink Burberry Hairband - $50
Shiseido Eyeliner - $16
Ralph Lauren Earrings and B&W Pearl/Onyx Necklace
Dylan's White Long Sleeve Vday Tee
It's 12:17am and Ma's still not here. Hmm...
I SWEAR from this day on that i will not buy candy at Dylan's anymore! UGH! Working right next to candyland is such temptation! AND.. I really will start going to the gym regularly - 3x/week MINIMUM!
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