It takes just a moment to lose trust and a hell of a long time to gain it back.

I'm aware this will take some time, and I'm willing to wait as much as it takes. I do feel guilty, moreover though, I really miss David.

I never meant to hurt him, but in the process of my wrong actions, i did. I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry I wasn't who you wanted me to be. I'm sorry I did things that made you feel bad and I'm sorry I didn't do everything right. I'm so sorry that I can't stop crying as I write this. I never wanted to hurt you. You are one of the greatest people I've ever met.

I really want the best for him, even if it means that the best is for him to no longer see me. I will love him for the rest of my life, with or without him. I was stupid, it was a mistake, I was wrong,

I love him, and will wait for a while, a good long while, to see if he can get over it. I don't know if he knows how badly hurting him is hurting me too and I could never do that again.

I'm so sorry.