It's Monday, 2pm. On this glorious day, the brilliant sky is filled with banks of motionless white clouds, fleecy as fleece, but so obedient and lazy they havent any need for a shepherd or a fence. January in New York is a peerless month, with long days of glittering snow and strong winds unfolding. This is the season when even the most foolish couples will stop to appreciate all that is set out vefore them, the creamy blossoms of snow-filled tree branches , the heavenly swarms of doves findin a place of warmth, hovering over white lawns it can seem as though the hand of all that's divine has leaned down to construct a perfect white wonderlanf, white upon white, perfection upon perfection.
Ultimately, the wonderful scenery within my vision is an enigma to my horrible present life. ust this January 13th marked my year of living miserably here in US.
I heard somewhere that when you write in a diary you should pretend that you're writing a letter to a really good friend, someone you trust completely, and you know will never laugh at you. So that's what I'm telling myself, because to tell the truth I feel kind of silly writing about my life in this dorky little book. And it's funny because I've actually made use of diares for several years now, and suddenly it hits me-like hey, I'm 21! According to some people this should be one of the most memorable eras of my whole life. Well, I'm not too sure I even want to remember everything about being 21, but on the other hand, i still have a little optimism that things will look up somehow, and it might actually be worth to track how the rest of 2005 year goes. Especially considering last night could have been the most horrible day of my life.
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It seems nothing has changed on what we feel living in this land. I turned 21 here as well and just thinking about it...2 years has passed but it just feels the same. Of course there is just a few extras in our love department but other than that it still doesn't feel like home. But then again you're right it is only January and there is a lot ahead of us...=)
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